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Talking to Myself because I am My Own Consultant

If I told you I wasn't good with words,
You know I'd be lying....
I'm too good you see
I can easily digress away from how I really feel
I'm not a liar
No, not at all
I just don't like talking about myself
Why?
I don't like to hear opinions
Opinions come from people who have judged and made a decision
I don't like to be judged
I especially don't like to be judged just by anyone either
So here I am
Let's begin with my name
Tiara
Simple as that
What comes to mind when I think of me?
Crazy -laughs-
Very crazy
Not the insane, I'll-kill-you-if-I-can't-have-you jumpoff
Bareable crazy
The type you can take home to your mom but still show you a good time at the club
Wholesome crazyness if you will
Life is crazy so why not embrace it?
I am also independent
Thinker, speaker, do-er
All on my own
My story is too long to put into words
Too many emotions have been felt
I can still feel them
I don't need to express how I feel because it wouldn't do it justice
Have I let go of the past?
Of course but there's some things you can't leave behind
I lived, learned and grew
I can tell you all the things that may seem exciting
But that's not near the pain I've dealt with
Am I going to sit here and spill my life story?
No
There's no point
It would be just re-living the life I don't want to
Do I regret it?
Not one moment
Yes I have people I wish I can trade in for others
But it doesn't matter because they don't matter anymore
Rather be alone than with people that are unwanted
So I am here, alone
In the dark about how am I going to see the light
-smiles-
No I see the light
Just wondering how I want it to engulf me
The sun kissing my body as it shines it's golden hue
Tinting my skin a crispy caramel
Love the light
That's what differs me from everyone else
Who I love
It's been a long time since I've sat with myself and just talked about myself
It's always been about everyone else
Or how am I going to adjust for another's needs
I will try to be more open
Let my lips be a direct link to my mind
Speak my thoughts ever so clearly
I don't want to but it will make it easier
For the both of us.....

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