Tasting Blaqueberry

Things are not as they were The saying goes the only constant in life is change I usually embrace it with open arms I'm not so sure now I'm tired of loved ones slipping through my hands as easily as cool water from the faucet  I'm tired of being financially drained  Living as if I have the bare minimum to survive  I'm tired of holding my head high when others strive to beat me until I'm low I'm tired of fleeting love as I go chasing sunsets I'm tired of my body moving slower than it once did Nights don't give me the solice I need anymore  Drinking feels forced  I avoid medicine to avoid the high Sober and woke It's hard being awake all the time I'm too aware to fall asleep Everyday is a constant battle on what I should do and how I feel War waned and hungry for more from this life, I have grown up I'm able to sustain the illusion of completion While walking around as hollow as the air balloon  Have

Black (Woman) Lives Matter (March 31, 2017, 9:49a) Black Lives Matter But more importantly, black women Lives Matter  We are the trees in the forest We are the bearer of fruit  But no one waters our roots We bear the labor of carrying our kings & queens But we still struggle  Our backs are breaking from countless hours of protecting our own  While our backs are exposed to danger I can give you the statistics of the world  But I can't take anymore  I don't need numbers to quantify the hurt in our eyes Mistreatment, misogyny, manslaughter  The black woman is the most unprotected person on the face of the planet But what happens to the forest when you strip it of its trees? When you kill us, there is no longer fruit to survive We are the clothes on your back The food in your stomach  The love in your heart  The hopes & dreams that either keep you up at night in anticipation  Or coo you sweet lullabies to sleep  Our warmth cannot

I have been through most things that a young woman shouldn't I'm not going to disclose my age nor what I've been through Not what I'm focusing on My focus is on the bonds I've made during my summer time on this Earth I have a new set of people I call my best friends from before Yeah it's cliche to have best friends but these are truly the people who are the best at being a good friend If you can't understand or comprehend, You've never had a best friend I have had an almost lifelong friend but we aren't close as we used to be Grew up and apart It happens I still keep in touch But those who have grew up and grown with me, This is for you... I love each and every one of you guys It's been a long road I've had my immature moments Stubbornness Ignorant, in the emotional sense But I wouldn't have made it through without your support Each one of you loves me and doesn't want to show it It's been a hard road but don

Do you know how it feels to be worse off than when you started? Shattered, when before you were only broken Cut runs deeper than at first The knife is sharper than the first time it stabbed Given your all when it wasn't good enough It didn't change not a damn thing Only changed how much pain you could deal with Made you number The pain from before was lightweight Dragging my body face down in the pavement The slow burn of hate to consume The urge to just kill, mutilate My thoughts are poisonous to my health So passionate to just reflect the pain you've caused Look at what you've done I am not sorry for any pain I've caused It was nothing compared to the hell you put me through I did what was expected and more And you still don't think you're wrong I want to torture you until your breath is one before your last I want Karma to hurry up and lay her doom But it burns to let you live until then You need to suffer here and now Patience will be my guide to seeing

I feel disrespected How would you feel if I sat up and talked with my ex on your phone? Just the principle alone in itself upsets me Your word has no value You said you wouldn't talk to her nor communicate again It sounded clear to me No contact, no problem And I believed you Now since you did, your words are lies that have yet to come true My word had no value I expressed how I felt When I feel different things Time and time again You've dismissed me as I was a joke A fool You were right I am a fool to believe you I constantly tell you upfront what's on my mind Keep you updated You neglected to not take me for granted I am just a tool I am a tool with many uses I feed you from nothing I clean you with my last I speak knowledge you pick and choose from I make you laugh and entertain you I copulate I use my hands to make you feel wanted But what I have left is a broken heart and an unsure vagina The words I've spoken from my heart was honest

The shit I've read about the #KONY2012 issue from others got me upset I personally haven't gave back to my community just yet but I am in the process of doing so But who the fuck are we to turn our backs on the children of the world? Let's just stop and fucking think for a second Do we ask children to be in this world? No Do we respect children as our equal? No What makes you think that anyone's child, that is not our own, doesn't affect you? You may not feel it today You may think I'm full of shit But one day, when you have or have already started your family, and someone does something to mentally, physically, emotionally and psychologically damaging to your child, Would you just sit there and watch? Not say a word? Children are a world's priority Children are taught things that are used to carry the world into the future One damaged child can wreck the flow of prosperity Imagine 10's of millions of children worldwide who will never be