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Dear 12

I swear I would love to be your size again lol
But things do get better in life
You have had 3 significant others, two of which were loves of your life
You mature vastly even amongst your peers
That includes sexuality too
If you don't know what that is, you will later
I'm sorry to say that not everyone who you cared for is still around
But you make it up with even better people who truly are there for you
High school isn't shit but college makes up for it all (at least a little bit lol)
I'm glad I didn't lose the glow that you had
That is and forever will be untouched
Your horizons will be bigger than the sunset & your love, passions will grow
I didn't change to the point where I'm unrecognizable but it's a major difference
The guys you will have a crush on will finally notice you
Clothes are kept much better and your confidence is sky high
You believe in yourself more and cut through bullshit quicker than a cutco knife
Life is full of surprises and you're still content with your life even when it's down and out
Just when you think it can't get any crazier, it does
Just when you think it can't get any better, it does
Keep smiling because you have a lot to smile for
Yes you keep your breasts and it grows even more!
You become the best of friends with your older sister
Unlikely? Very much so but very welcomed
You become crazier than ever imagined
Bold, so bold
But sweet, immensely sweet
Perfect balance of human
Just keep doing what you're doing
All the things you want will be open doors for you one day
Fall in love
Insecurities will take hold and feel like holding forever
Cry and cry hard
It will feel like your heart is breaking at times
But without pain, there's no growth
Also you have two beautiful nephews in the world, J and E
They love you and you love them too
It's in-explainable how you love with all your heart
You do so with so much strength and it's not taken in vain
Just know one more thing
You are beautiful just the way you are
I love you too
Never stopped
Can't wait to see you when you get here
Love, 21

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