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I use sex to fill the void
The void of being alone
The void of feeling useless, worthless
Temporary high that consumes me
I'm happiness when he puts it in
I'm back to sadness when I'm empty
No one wants to take it further
Tea time talking to T
No one wants that emotional attachment
As I sit here & pretend to not care,
I do....deeply
Women are lovers
I yearn love and to be loved
Something about an intimate romance
Sweetest thing I'll ever know
I'll fuck you three ways from Sunday and know how to make you feel at home
I know what I'm worth
No one just doesn't see it
My love is fungible
Only can be exchanged with another's love
I give head to imitate giving love
I receive head to imitate receiving love
I let you enter so I can feel love all around
I kiss to give tokens of appreciation
I let you take me from behind so I can feel protected by your love
I ride so I can feel the earth-shattering love control me
It completes me...
...Until it's over
You turn over or clean up
I lay there unsatisfied in my satisfaction
I need that love to fill me inside & out
To make my dreams come true
Not only for myself
Loving your family is nothing compared to loving him
Giving him your heart, mind, body & soul to keep and treasure in all its magnificence
But I don't have that
My thoughts are gold compared to my concrete reality
The hope for love pushes me through...

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