The Manipulative Sadomasochist

A tear runs down my cheek as broken swallows pain my throat....
I know what I should be doing is the opposite
But my mind deceived me to acting as an imposter
I'm not a friend to no one yet I lied to myself and others
Hypocritical bitch at best
I feel faint but there's no turning back
I hum but I get lashed at
It burns my flesh as the whip retracts
Another tear from my right eye creeps down instead
And I smile inside....
He comes up and whispers "you're mine"
My lips curl up as much as they can
He's uncomfortably close
But that's how I like it
He throws me on the floor from my chair
I enjoy the coldness of the ground
He comes and positions me to he can take me
He shoves it in
No lube, no warning
It burns as he fucks me feverishly
I murmur "no, please don't"
He grabs my hair and bites my cheek
"Whores like you aren't worthy to respect"
He was right
I can't deny that who I am people disgust
He continues to bend me to his want
Taking me without an agreement
This was my perfect rape fantasy
I knew he would be the one to offer me what I wanted
What I deeply desired
What I had manipulated for
He belongs to someone else
But he's mine in this moment
As my ass is up for grabs and my face is pressed down, he is mine
I didn't care as long as I got this
About his wife?
Fuck her
She knew the type of person I was before she blindly befriended me
Dick was my passion, savior and it was my gatekeeper to happiness
She was just a necessary stepping stone
He stops and cums in my face
The scarf in my mouth is saturated from his love
But he's not done with me...
He rapes me and abuses me as I mentally rejoice the abyss
The cinders flickering off my skin in hell will be worth the despair I've caused
She walks in...
She starts speaking expletives
The look of horror on her face is the icing on the cake
She takes out her gun and threatens him to release me
Visually I am a battered woman with a reddened face
Little does she knows, that is my satisfied face
The red flush of greed
He starts to inch towards her
Then in a blury moment, he is shot down
I start crying hysterically bc the bitch shot my man
I fall to my knees
The cops come and the house is alone after the dust has settled
She showers me in my daze
She gazes over me in the tub and starts kissing me
She sees pain
She only knows how to make me smile in one way
She parts my legs and I control my moans
My lifeless body doesn't want her touch but since ignited, I am in heat
She eats me til I become alive
And the look on my face is pure satisfaction as I look down upon her and think...
Such a dumb bitch